Ed replies: I've been saved in 1979, baptized in 1984, and filled with the Spirit in 1985. Like all of His children we have different callings and purposes. The high calling you're talking about, Paul also mentioned. He declared that he was born at the wrong time. This was because he saw the time we are to enter in back then. I believe if you're not called to it, you can't have it. "I will have mercy on who I will have mercy". I do believe you have a special insight to the inner realm, but it's only because the Lord gave it to you. I also know that we need to be responsive and do our part. Your posts are stirring the Spirit up in me and for that I am grateful. Thank you.